FergusonK's journal - Goodbye Java Jewel.

[babsbag]

I am so sorry, that just really stinks. I know they are buried but did you consider a necropsy? I think I would really need to know what happened.

 

[Ferguson K]

Honestly it as probably this wet, cold rain. We considered putting a light up but we're scared of fire. Considered making a blanket for them with old socks, couldn't find any. Both kids were found in the same spot of the stall, in the pile of hay. Onyx paws her hay. Either they got pawed into that corner and she laid on them or they were cold and chilled.

Less than an hour before the doeling we lost I watched her nursing and playing. She curled up in my lap, I put her in the pile of shavings she liked to sleep on. She got up and ran to Onyx and nursed. I went inside.


The rain came down like someone cut a hole in the ocean. I went out to check and found her against the corner, splayed out. Exactly how I found the buckling. Same spot, same position.

I don't know.

I considered a necropsy but I talked to my vet about an hour ago(he's been with me through a LOT lately) and he said they probably got squished. They didn't look squished. But Onyx is big, wouldn't take much I supposed. He said that or the dampness in the air, they may have chilled. They were 3.5 and 4.1 lbs at death. Doeling was considerably larger.

 

[babsbag]

It is so heartbreaking to lose the babies.

 

[Ferguson K]

I had been excoted for these kids sincethe the breeding was planned. I waited and waited on Onyx to deliver. I cried two days in a row as we lost both kids.

It's not only an emotional loss, but a financial loss. I don't know what hurts more.

They were gorgeous.

 

[babsbag]

 

[OneFineAcre]

I'm so sorry.

 

[goatgurl]

oh, fergie, i'm so sorry that you lost both the babies. nothing else to say, i'm so sorry.

 

[frustratedearthmother]

I am so sorry...

 

[norseofcourse]

I am so sorry you lost them I am heartbroken for you, too....

 

[Baymule]

Oh no! I am so sad for you. I just don't know what to say besides am so sorry. Losing one was bad enough, but both is devastating. I wish I could give you a big hug and cry with you.