You weren't even expecting them yet. I am so sorry for the loss. I am sorry for her, the babies and you. Big hugs. You are a good piggy mommy, we all know that.
Darlin’ don’t beat yourself up too much. Things happen. Even when we have a ton of experience, things happen. First time expectant moms are the hardest to predict/monitor/etc. It’s such a learning curve for so many of them too!
One more baby this AM.. It hurts...a lot. Seeing Calliope so heartbroken and confused. I haven’t broken down like that in a long time. We are hurt both emotionally and finacially. We could have had 15 little ones but we only have two.. We have made such a commitment now and we are not going to give up. My dad and I talked and we will be putting Calliope back out with Atlas in the next few weeks. She will have some time to recover. And Maeja will also be going back out with him once she weans her babies. As farmers these kinds of losses happen to all of us, but every heartbreak comes with a valuable learning experience and lessons you won’t forget.
Thank you all for your kind replies. Im still hurting right now but I am focusing on the future. And for now I’ve got these two to snuggle on.
Big hugs. You've had a kick in the gut, but you are a farmer. Farmers take the hits, get up and get back in the game. You have every right to cry and grieve, heck, I cry over dead little lambs and grieve too. We cry, then we wipe our eyes, wash our face and start over. Breeding them back is a good idea, you will soon have lots of little piggies.