I'm having a rough patch here in the early spring.
Fortunato got killed by the bale of hay. I was very fond of him, he was a bottle baby and a gorgeous buck. I kind of feel that was caused by carelessness on my part.
We had 19 kids and lost one. Necropsy said she had bacteria in her lungs and liver. Don't know what you can do about something like that.
Had to have my 13 year old cat put down.
And now Coleus, who I was also quite fond of. Not sure what happened there. I've been looking at the causes of Goat Polio and Listeriosis. I can't think of anything we have been doing differently.
It's just all starting to have a cumulative effect.
I'm so sorry OFA!!
One thing you cannot do is blame yourself... you have done your best caring for your animals, and we know that you do a wonderful job with them! Sometimes these things happen, even though we do our best to prevent it. Please do not blame yourself!
Praying for your family.
You've made it apparent that you blame yourself in some part, but I think that's too harsh a stand. Yes, Fortunato's loss happened because of the way you placed hay bales, but you didn't place them that way with the intention of killing one of your goats, and how could you have known or anticipated that happening? It was a freak accident... they happen. The kid you lost, was beyond you to save... what could you have done? How could you have known the issue there? Your cat lived a great life, and we all age and eventually fail... It sucks that some of our best friends are allotted much less time here than we are, and we have to lose them (too many IMHO) as we move forward.
I hope the lab can determine what took Coleus from you. I know that will help some, but it won't obviously bring her back. You still have all your other adult goats and all those beautiful kids that they delivered for you. Hope you can take some solace in that. Again, truly sorry.
I am truly sorry, it hurts so much to lose one of the family. @Latestarter starter said it all very well. We do the best that we can and should never feel defeated or mad at ourselves when things don't always work the way we hope they will.