Sad and just need to write it down.

[bcnewe2]

My first love is to my dogs, Border Collies. It is they that bought me into the wonderful world of animals that are such a part of my soul.
Long ago my young sister's husband died suddenly. It was a very heartbreaking tragedy. The day before the funeral my first border collie was tragically hit by a car and died in my arms.
I was heartbroken over both but felt guilty that my heart ached as much for my puppy as my sister's husband.
Upon seeing her at the funeral we cried together for our losses. She looked at me with love in her eyes and said she totally understood that my heart was broken as much as hers even though it was only my dog. And went on to tell me that up in heaven her husband must have needed a friend at his side and knew he couldn't take their dog, it would have been to much for her to bear. So instead my puppy went to be by his side for the new journey that they were beginning.

I tell you now, maybe the loved ones you lost needed your sweet geese to accompany them on their heavenly journeys. Be sad for your loss but happy for the wonderful new journeys that they have embarked on together.
Peace to your heart.

 

[Sweetened]

Our words are only honey on a wound, trying to start it knitted, but we all mean them sincerely. My most sincere condolences for your loss.

I have found when things spiral, and then continue to do so when you've acknowledged or vented, going to bed and have a nap, then waking up again to re-start the day, can sometimes add some clarity. These times will be hard for you, they'll come up later after they've healed and surprise you, but each time it'll get a little easier, it'll become a new normal, and you will heal.

I find, when I am sad or scared, I will find which animal I have that will sit with me, and I just talk. I believe they understand everything, where many believe otherwise. And sometimes in your saddest moment, an animal who may be a little flighty or skittish, disinterested or even mean, will approach you to comfort and say they understand. Those moments are healing and worthwhile to try for. Helps the worried emptiness that can be there.

You will be fine, and you have all of our support. Do get in touch if you need an unbiased ear who knows very little of you. Sometimes, that helps as well.

All the very best.