Sad day tomorrow

[bonbean01]

Sorry about your roo and your turkey hen

Counting my blessings here...had a cancer scare with hubby last week...MRI on Monday, and he is clear...whew! Come to think of it...this past weekend has not been the best and glad this week is almost over.

 

[RemudaOne]

Wow Bonnie! So glad to hear your hubs is in the clear! Part of what you're going through may also be a release of THAT stress as well. Take it easy and just kick back and relax this weekend girl. You can always come to Texas NEXT weekend . But seriously, sounds like you need to let it roll a little bit. Have a good cry, it will probably make you feel better then go grab onto your hubs and watch a movie with him and some popcorn. A COMEDY, NOT A SENTIMENTAL CHICK FLICK!!!

Bless you both, what an emotional roller coaster.

 

[Bridgemoof]

Aww Bon, I totally missed this thread yesterday. I would have sent you massive hugs and I'm sending them to you now too

You are a strong person, Bon, farming is so hard as I am learning. I love every animal just like you do, and some just steal your heart more than others. You made the tough decision, but the right one. I struggle all the time and want to think of all the animals as pets, but I know we can't be in business with that attitude.

I hope you are feeling a bit better now, I feel so badly for you. So glad hubbies test turned out okay, too! Been there, too, with my hubby, but the end results were not good. It's a scary, stressful thing to have to deal with.

Wishing you warm thoughts

 

[SheepGirl]

Aww, so sorry I know how much you loved that girl!

 

[Southern by choice]

Thought about you throughout the day today, was wondering how you were doing. Feeling this with you sister!
Praying your heart will be comforted tonight. Sending a real hug!

 

[bonbean01]

Thanks all...funny how people you've only met on here can become so very dear

Bridge...saying special prayers for you and hubby...so sorry you are dealing with bad results of his test

As for our sweet Suzie...hubs and I today went out to feed the sheep and move them to pasture...missed our special call from her and both had total regret and wished we could turn back the clock a day...not practical to feed and care for a non producing animal, but if we could go back in time we'd keep her forever and live with the fact that as farmers go, we suck. But, it is too late now. Hubs is rebuilding a chicken coop area that doesn't need it...at least he's being productive...me...I'm on here crying in my coffee

I feel rather guilty being so upset about this when others are dealing with serious medical issues...again Bridge...really feeling for you!!!!

Kristis you are right...these past several weeks have been pretty stressful...thinking about how life would change with a positive test result for cancer...along with all the rest. Day before yesterday I took a hard fall on the wet dock and thought I got off easy with just scrapes and bruises...today I'm really paying for it and woke up to yet more bruises and creaky body. Yup...need popcorn and a comedy for sure...then I come nab one of your lambies

Now I'm going to suck it up...shut up...and go love on my sheepies and give hubs a hand with that coop

 

[Bridgemoof]

Aww Bon,

It will get better. I blubber like an idiot just like you when an animal here dies. (Oh wait, you're not an idiot, lol) It's just so hard sometimes. I think maybe I will become a bit more desensitized over time. I think this time last year we didn't even have sheep yet, and I was crying over the chickens. Now I'm definitely less sensitive about the chickens, and know that bad things happen a lot on a farm.

Now what would we have if we only kept our farm animals as pets? We wouldn't be able to keep them at all because it would cost too much, don't you think? Well if you suck as a farmer, I suck too. I mean, gosh, when we had to put Beastie down last week, I sobbed and sobbed. You are such a nice person, Bon, I can tell how much you care about your animals and other people and their animals as well. I hate to see you so sad.

As for hubby, well he died 4 years ago from cancer. It's ok, I'm at peace with it. But it goes to show you that life can change in a minute, and what you think you have planned for your future can't really be predicted or planned at all. You never know what is going to happen, so enjoy every minute you have with your loved ones, because there are no guarantees. You have to live for the living, and not those who have passed. Four years ago I never would have imagined I would be on a farm raising sheep, but look at me now! And for all the heartaches, there are ten times as many joys.

So, smile, and just think: LAMBIES!!!!

 

[bonbean01]

Oh Bridge...I didn't know that you'd lost your husband. You are a strong woman for sure. I really should read everyone's complete journals and perhaps start one myself this winter.

 

[Straw Hat Kikos]

Bridge -- I'm so sorry. You really do seem like a strong woman. Especially for all that you've gone thru. And it is funny how you mentioned about four years ago and how you would never have seen yourself with a farm and animals and sheep. Same here!! When I think back just 3,4,5 years ago I would have NEVER NEVER guessed I would have animals. I never say anything more than a dog in my future, as far as animals. I still can't believe it. Oh and being too sensitive can be a bad thing imo but being too desensitized can be worse. I would say that I am pretty desensitized now. I can come back and realize what a life is, even for a chicken, but death doesn't seem to bother me. As much as I love my goats I realize that if it came down to it, everyone of them could be eaten or sold. But hopefully that never has to happen and they live the rest of their happy lives here with me and get to die in a natural way of old age after they have given me more than I could ever give them. Goats rule!!

bonbean -- Please start a journal!! There are several people I've been really hoping would start journals. It's great when an active member that is so liked in the community (BYH) starts one and we all get top talk about their stuff and here whats going on. So please do!!

ETA: Check that. After thinking for a bit I do not think that I am desensitized. Desensitized is where you no longer care about the life and it doesn't matter to you. It's nothing. I would say I do value the lives of animals but I do realize what it is. An animal. I would not kill an animal to kill one. I will only kill an animal if it is for food or if it is better for the animal. That does not bother me. I guess that is more of a well balanced way and imo the best way. That's how it should be I think. If an animals needs to go because it is sick, hurt, ect then you are doing nothing wrong but really something good. It's better for them and you. For food it's the same, in a way. That animal is sacrificing it's life to feed you and your family.. It's not dying in vain but for you to survive. In the end all animals are food. So I don't really think what I said was really true. I think that I have a balance should be required for all ranchers/farmers that raise animals for meat and food.

 

[SkyWarrior]

Late, but...