terrilhb

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You absolutely have not failed Sara. Quite the opposite. You have been there, beside her, doing all that you can. You have worked with your vet, taken on an overwhelming task.
@terrilhb when we can't fix it, we feel the way you are feeling. Everyone following your story has been there, we are feeling this with you, but I know we cannot feel the depths of that self doubt.
I just want to share and remind you, sometimes it is just beyond our control- out of our hands. :hugs:hugs:hugs
Only you can know when enough is enough and that you are with her, see her and love her...

I don't know why sometimes there are no answers, no rhyme or reason. Those are the hardest and in your mind you will go over and over and question everything, desperately trying to think of something you missed or could have done or why... the list goes on and on and you can make yourself sick over it. It is hard to step back, breathe deeply and find that place of peace.
I pray you find peace in your mind and heart. My heart aches for you. Hang in there you have not failed. :hugs:hugs:hugs
Thank you so much. I just left my friends house where she did a fecal. There was 23. She said that is nothing. We discussed this and she came up with an idea. We in Ga have had some really cold weather. Severe for us. And even with her blanket and being in the barn she might be using more calories to help her stay warm. We are supposed to be going into a warm spell. High 60's. She said this might help her. So I am going to pray and wait a bit longer. As my friend said as long as she is fighting and not in pain I need to fight along side her. Last night was a bad night. She fell over and even with me helping her to get up it took her longer. Made me cry. Thank you again.
You absolutely have not failed Sara. Quite the opposite. You have been there, beside her, doing all that you can. You have worked with your vet, taken on an overwhelming task.
@terrilhb when we can't fix it, we feel the way you are feeling. Everyone following your story has been there, we are feeling this with you, but I know we cannot feel the depths of that self doubt.
I just want to share and remind you, sometimes it is just beyond our control- out of our hands. :hugs:hugs:hugs
Only you can know when enough is enough and that you are with her, see her and love her...

I don't know why sometimes there are no answers, no rhyme or reason. Those are the hardest and in your mind you will go over and over and question everything, desperately trying to think of something you missed or could have done or why... the list goes on and on and you can make yourself sick over it. It is hard to step back, breathe deeply and find that place of peace.
I pray you find peace in your mind and heart. My heart aches for you. Hang in there you have not failed. :hugs:hugs:hugs
 

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So blessed to have the family I have!

One of my adult son's and I came up with a plan to just have a fun night out... didn't tell anyone til the day before!
Morning of I called all my adult kids (not living at home) and asked if they would join us. All said sure!
My oldest DD asked to bring her Boyfriend... I said of course ( figured I should since the first time I met him I grilled him and gave him a time... he was a good sport! I like that)
Kids still living at home got all excited!

We did the 10pm-1am bowl!

We had a blast!
I stood back a few times watching everyone interacting.
You know, a Saturday night and half of them could have gone anywhere... but they all showed up. I saw all the siblings laughing, teasing, helping, and competing.
We have a few that are HIGHLY competitive. ;)

Walked over to my son that helped put it all together gave him the mom look of "thank you" he looked at me smiled and said "I know this is what you love".
Yep!:love:love:love

I stood back and thought how proud I was of each one. How each one is making their way in the world.
Topping on the cake is getting texts afterward... "Thanks mom!"

Got home at 2am.... sleep by 3.

Today I am sore sore sore, my hips hurt! :lol: So worth it!
 

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25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”

Psalm 31 pretty much sums you up to a "T", @Southern by choice and the rest of us are blessed just to know you.
 

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Beautiful pictures... And my goodness I need another LaMancha:love:love (My tablet will except that word :th).

I've almost got dad convinved for the Mini Mancha... He likes the idea of a goat that milks like a standared but is smaller. Okay, I'm rambling, lol.

So blessed to have the family I have!

One of my adult son's and I came up with a plan to just have a fun night out... didn't tell anyone til the day before!
Morning of I called all my adult kids (not living at home) and asked if they would join us. All said sure!
My oldest DD asked to bring her Boyfriend... I said of course ( figured I should since the first time I met him I grilled him and gave him a time... he was a good sport! I like that)
Kids still living at home got all excited!

We did the 10pm-1am bowl!

We had a blast!
I stood back a few times watching everyone interacting.
You know, a Saturday night and half of them could have gone anywhere... but they all showed up. I saw all the siblings laughing, teasing, helping, and competing.
We have a few that are HIGHLY competitive. ;)

Walked over to my son that helped put it all together gave him the mom look of "thank you" he looked at me smiled and said "I know this is what you love".
Yep!:love:love:love

I stood back and thought how proud I was of each one. How each one is making their way in the world.
Topping on the cake is getting texts afterward... "Thanks mom!"

Got home at 2am.... sleep by 3.

Today I am sore sore sore, my hips hurt! :lol: So worth it!
Nothing like a havng family together.

My mom is always talking about how much she loves having us altogether but I think it is starting to dawn on her in 3-5 years time some of us will probably be moving on, so I always make sure to reassure her that we will be family forever (she didn't know what it as like when growing up to be a family). But I am going to read this to her.
 

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@animalmom that made me cry. How kind. :hugs You know I had the Proverbs woman (31) taped to my fridge many moons ago... I realized some things over the years...
First, that I am not the Prov woman.
I will fail, sometimes I will wish for a do over, sometimes I will make the wrong call or decision... I learned that all I can do is the best I can.
Thankfully, I am covered by HIS cloak of righteousness.

Oh @TAH - oh it is wonderful TAH, tell her it is... it is a joy to see your children grow and mature... yes there are some hard knocks along the way... but there is joy!
Every stage from pregnancy to newborn to toddler all the way through early adolescence to late... the teen years are awesome. Then young adult... each stage has been wonderful!
Tell momma to enjoy every minute because it is fleeting.
I know you all will be around!
 

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( figured I should since the first time I met him I grilled him and gave him a time... he was a good sport! I like that)
Test number 1: Passed!

My mom is always talking about how much she loves having us altogether but I think it is starting to dawn on her in 3-5 years time some of us will probably be moving on
Maybe that is why she keeps backfilling ;)
 
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