*Taking off my emotional hat and putting on my farmer's hat*
On the bright side, my doe is healthy and milking great! I've got LOTS of 1st and 2nd day colostrum (plus more to come) stored away in the freezer for future kids that might need it. And I still have Brownie due to kid in a few weeks. I'm hopeful that those kids come at the right time and are healthy and strong.