You are not cursed. Please don't blame yourself...try not to. Hoover's life was short but glorious. He had more happiness and love in a few weeks than most goats get in a normal lifetime. Please don't close your heart to the other goats you have or to future goats. Both you and the goats deserve each other.
Those of us who dare to love deeply will grieve deeply. But the grief fades with time.....be careful not to cut yourself....and your goats....off from the deep love in the future. That advice was given to me years ago and it was good, good advice.
I loved Hoover and never even met him! I can't imagine (yes, I can) what you are going through. I'm so, so sorry.
Think of how many goats out there are intentionally neglected. YOU are a wonderful goat mama for loving and caring for their well-being. I'm so sorry you lost him. He was super cute.
You gave hoover the best life he could ever ask for. He was loved and well cared for. Accidents happen, please don't blame yourself for this. My heart breaks for you. I'm so so sorry this happened.
Warm thoughts being sent your way from Syracuse. I have read your story and how very touching and sad. Goats certainly do take up lots of space in our hearts and minds.