My condolences to your family. It is tough to not be able to be with family at times like this. Not counting what you have been going through with having your whole life, and those plans and dreams upended like you have. I think of you often as I am making some adjustments to my plans to milk a couple of my cows next year and do herd/cow shares due to the constant rules and regulations and aggravations of dealing with the public. I really doubt that I will be going in that direction now, although at present have no intention to get rid of my cows but to get them all to take a couple extra calves as nurse cows.
Maybe this insanity with people with this covid-19 will change things for the better for people to learn to appreciate the ones that have small homestead-type farms, and for more to want to do more for themselves, or for those of us that do, to be able to do some sensible sales or bartering without the govt trying to make it all so "taboo" and considered as "unsafe or unhealthy".......