Peteyfoozer’s Journey (because journaling’s not enough)

[SageHill]

Boone does!

 

[Baymule]

Fen is a stinker. Spoiled brat pure-dee stinker. I had to laugh and his refusal to do anything I know it’s frustrating for you, but he latched onto Randy and that’s that. Randy will have to come in the doctors office with you and not sit out in the car anymore.

 

[fuzzi]

I’ve never in my 70 years (minus 6 months) seen a dog that behaved like Fen. Thank the good Lord I probably never will again. He’s off the charts intelligent but when he makes up his mind, he is immovable. He’s loyal to Randy and will do anything for him, never receiving praise or reward, but when it comes to doing for me, I get a big FU. He likes getting treats from me, and loves when I skritch his hips so he can do the “happy hiney dance”, but only because Randy is nearby. If he is left at home with me, he stares out the window at Randy’s workshop and cries until he comes home, even if it takes hours.
I wish someone loved ME that much!

Tirzah was my heart dog, was totally devoted and obedient once she hit 18 months. I was devastated losing her at 9.

But Cleo was Ron's dog from the moment they met. She's still mourning, she saw EMS take him away.

 

[peteyfoozer]

Tirzah was my heart dog, was totally devoted and obedient once she hit 18 months. I was devastated losing her at 9.

But Cleo was Ron's dog from the moment they met. She's still mourning, she saw EMS take him away.
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Heartbreaking

 

[peteyfoozer]

Yeah, Fenny took his last trip to town. He just gets much too anxious and serves no purpose as I still have to ask strangers to pick stuff up, as neither one of us can get stuff from off the ground ( Randy can, with lots of grunting and struggles to get off his knees )
We both required steroid injections, his in shoulder, mine in hip, my BP was high for being on bp meds but not real bad, his was 168/104 which concerned me…
I posted about Fen on FB. Fen’s breeder wanted me to call, said she’d take him back and work something out. It was a sh!t show for me, explaining my sarcasm, and that we adore Fen, he just isn’t a service dog, which is ok, he’s still family, Heathen’s breeder was posting trying to explain how many SD’s fail (mind you, right after Heath’s death they were positive Fen would make an SD because he’s so smart, but smart isn’t a qualification. A bond is more important, although real dog trainers can get performance without, to a degree…) while this is going on in texts, my phone was vibrating and blowing up with messages, Randy had reached beside the seat and slashed the back of his hand about 5” long and was bleeding everywhere, needing stitches, drove to ER but didn’t stop, asked me to find a pharmacy (strange town) GPS wouldn’t give street names just kept saying “turn on THE STREET” as we drove thru traffic on a main blvd with streets everywhere, I was losing my mind…found pharmacy which had no butterfly bandages and sent us to grocery store for some…bandaged his hand, some dog trainer in Montana I don’t even know was now texting me how herding dogs and LGDs won’t make SD’s…
All I wanted was a strong drink and hot bath…but I still have no bathtub…living on washcloth baths til he gets it finished…

My nightmares have gotta be better’n this…

 

[Baymule]

Don’t you just love keyboard warriors? They know everything, you don’t even have to ask. Just posture truth and the Gestapo comes after you.

What would motivate Randy to install the new bathtub? No cooking? Not speaking, ignore him? Anything?

 

[SageHill]

Ah yeah - FB and it's keyboard warriors. They haven't a clue, and worse don't even try to rub two brain cells together to figure anything out (perhaps they only have one brain cell?) - they certainly don't know how to scroll past anything. Self empowered idiots. We could all trade stories about them.
Sorry you had to deal with them on top of everything else.
Time to let Mr Boone Dog snuggle up against you.

 

[peteyfoozer]

He’s back to working for the ranch. This is where he left it all. I’m so discouraged.

and the rest is so I can’t access closet or drawers…

The worst part is, he spent days working on it, but he’s painfully slow and very apathetic about anything important to me. If someone left his workshop like this for a day, all hell would break loose.
I am so over this. I stink, I hurt, I’m alone without friend or family, all in another state. I’m stressed out by debt and will continue drowning in pain and debt until it’s all finally over. Boone is the only positive thing in my otherwise sucky life, and even he is a challenge.
Rant over. Tears ready to commence. I hope he gags on BO.

 

[Baymule]

Do you have family you could go to?

 

[peteyfoozer]

Do you have family you could go to?

Unfortunately, no. My oldest son cut us out of his life when he married, as she didn’t like us. My youngest lives alone in a company house and is gone all but a couple days a month. When I went to see him, I had to sleep in his chair. My “not really a daughter) has already got 6 people crammed in a very small 3 bedroom rental house. I literally am trapped here or I would have left more than 10 years ago.
Sorry to unload here. I’m really struggling with the isolation and having no one I can talk to about my feelings. No one wants to hear it, and thats understandable as there are absolutely no solutions at all. No one can help. I even hired a counselor but they are so full of sh8t it just irritates me.
God bless you and thanks for being here. It’s so easy to scroll by…