Farmerjan's journal - Weather

[farmerjan]

Thanks for the get better wishes. Actually, I am feeling a little better already. Ate on the way to the farm, yeah, "fast food" but made sure I had a 1/2 hour then took the antibiotic and no problem. Took a cough gel capsule also so I wouldn't spend the night coughing. I pushed to get through the milking but finally got done and after the washing up / meters running the cycles.... loaded the car and came home. It was 11:45 when I finally got home and I was whipped. Came in, took a shower and didn't have any trouble going to sleep. Woke up and had some coughing but once up it subsided. I ate a bit ago and took the pill and stomach fine. So that is the trick for me, eat FIRST then take it. Have not taken anything for the cough as it is not near as bad today.

It got down to 30 here and didn't start to do any precip until after 9 a.m.; then just some cold rain and not much. Looks like the bulk has stayed more south and what we are getting is broken up more. In fact, seeing a little sun trying to come out there now. Only 40 so a big difference from the 70's 2 days ago.

I made myself a good lunch of a small filet and sauteed mushrooms and green beans. Really splurged... trying to eat out of the freezer and all. And I wanted a good meal. I am going to stuff the chicken and put in the oven in a bit. Got the 2nd sink full of dishes done. Need a little sit down time for a few minutes but at least I have some energy in short bursts. Still having some headaches but I think as the stuffiness/congestion goes they should lessen too.

DS called and went to pick up the 2 bulls we had looked at a couple months ago.... He has one sold to a friend and wanted to know which one I wanted to keep and did I want to come look at them. We discussed them a bit and I told him that whichever one he decided on was fine with me. He is making a little on the one he's selling which will cheapen the amount in the one we are keeping. I think this will help to put more "bulk" on the next crop of calves. The last preg check with the bigger group of cows; we had switched bulls about 60 days and it looks like more of the cows were bred to the 2nd bull.... so he needs to be checked in the spring for a BSE (breeding soundness exam) which looks at the semen quality, motility of the sperm and such. He was already in the group of cows near me, so a week ago we went and put another bull in there to make sure we don't wind up with open cows from that group. We might not know the sires of some of the calves born next year if they come up preg from around the time we added the bull, but better preg than not preg. We are not keeping as many replacement heifers so it may never be an issue and since none are registered, it is not life and death. I like to know sire and dam of the heifers but it is mostly for our own use as to what bull is throwing more "keepers"....
I have not talked to him since he was going to get them.

Clouded up again, looks like on the radar it will do this the rest of the day. Down to 38 so pretty chilly. Not a day I need to be outside.

Need to get my work schedule calendar out and make some calls/send texts... get next week scheduled.

Break's over... time to do chicken. Might even see about baking something to help warm up the house...

 

[Mini Horses]

I have chilly rain here. About 1-1.5 " I didn't need, so far....they suggested it will be gone soon. Hope so!! Then more thu-fri

Hope the new bull does well. I know how important any sire can be to the herd and bottom line.

Glad your feeling better!!

 

[Baymule]

Glad you are feeling better and fixed yourself a good meal.

 

[canesisters]

Glad you're feeling better!
There's something almost magic about baking & the power it has to make you feel better.

 

[farmerjan]

Monday morning. Been an aggravating weekend. Sat turned wetter late that afternoon and evening; , and it was downright cold. Had a couple of cows get out of the pasture next door... and they were being a PITA. Got them in, put up an old gate where they had gone through this crappy high tensile wire and cedars and garbage fence.
Didn't sleep good because I kept hearing the cows mooing, and went out a couple times to make sure they were not out in the road.
Fell into a deep sleep finally after 5 a.m. and seems DS got a call they were out... he got the couple of constant trouble makers into the small catch lot and brought truck and trailer up to move them. Came in to get the clipboard with the info, some of the pairs were not matched up, and I never heard him come in the house. He then left the truck/trailer backed up to the catch pen, took my forester and went back to the farm to work because he had a guy there helping him with the fence for the bull lot. I finally woke up around 11... and was still tired... but after talking to him, went in the lot and finally got the calf matched to the one cow that we weren't sure of. Then I got another problem cow into the pen and matched to her calf and DS came and we moved those 3 out.
It turned sunny and was a nice enough day weather wise.
Later that afternoon, he went to meet with GF... get some stuff she found there and they were going to "talk"... He was gone an hour and here come some cows that had pushed through another "bad spot" and were in the yard and the dirt road... Got them in.... THANK GOD for cattle trained to come to call for a bucket.... and then proceeded to try to fix it.... thought I had it patched enough, called DS and told him and that he needed to come back and get this fixed. No sooner had I gotten back to the house that there were 4 out again... and so I got them in... put grain out on the ground in piles in the catch lot and got most all the rest of the cows in there and shut the gates. Texted DS and told him what I did, where they were, and that he needed to FIX that spot of fence and that the cows were staying locked in the catch lot and that there were a couple of cows still in the big field and a bunch of calves still with them. BUT the problem, "want out cows" were in where they could not get out and the fact that all their calves were not with them was just TOO D@#N BAD. He texted back and said he would take care of it when he came back later.
The cows hollered constantly wanting their calves and wanting out of the catch lot until somewhere around 11 p.m. and then quiet so I guess he had gone into there. They are in this morning by the looks of it. I am so done with the half-fixing crap......

Haven't heard what the "talk" entailed.... if they go back together I am done with that whole situation too... I will not be a party to this insanity. He may feel that he cannot live without her, but since I don't have to live in that house or with that situation, if he gets back into it then it is time for me to get out of all of it. I shouldn't be so judgemental since I don't know how the talk went.... Just got a text that the whole corner is fixed temporarily.....

It is cloudy and cold..... 39 and damp....cold all day.... and windy later making it feel colder.. Supposed to be some rain/showers all day and then partly cloudy and nicer tomorrow....
Ate breakfast and took pill... going to get dressed and figure out what I need to get into today. Need to pack the samples from Friday night and get them sent out too.
Maybe today will be a little better....

 

[Baymule]

Would it be better to give that place up because of the terrible fence? Or strike a deal with the land owner for a better fence? That is an ongoing problem and patching on top of patches ain’t working.

I hope your day gets better and I’m glad you got some SLEEP!

 

[farmerjan]

@Baymule ; I have no say in the fencing situation, and that pasture is part of the total rental with the crop field and hay so it won't be given up. I just get to be here to get them in..... DS did set up some corral fence panels to stop access to that whole corner.... who knows when it will get fixed properly. Part of the problem is that when some of these truck drivers that look at their GPS and decide they need a "shortcut" to somewhere, get on the back roads and then it sends them up this dirt road, they CAN NOT make this corner without going way up on the bank and then takes out the corner of the fence, Happened twice a year ago.... and we and the owner, should not have to lose ground to make the fence "rounded at this corner... plus it needs the corner for the brace posts.... and when the fence gets taken out then the high tensile loses the corner that you pull against then the whole fence gets loose. Haven't been able to catch the truck/trailers that have done itas they don't stop, just keep on going... they have taken out the stop sign in the middle of the road at the end , also .
Plus, we only use this pasture as a winter pasture for when we bring cows home from elsewhere; to have close to home for feeding.

It is sunny today after the cold wet of yesterday. 43 all the way up to 62 already.... Windy so the ground will dry out alot on top. It rained quite a bit last evening and it had gotten soggy again. Sure hope we are not getting our year's allotment of rain all at once this early.

Took the forester down to leave it for the new windshield to be put in. Appt is Wed but it suited DS to do it last night. I asked about the trip down to get some stuff she found at her house and the talk and he says things were good, she asked him to stay for supper, then after he read to the daughter, he had to leave and he said she locked the door behind him. He keeps saying he just doesn't get it..... how much he loves her and that things shouldn't be like this. I told him that she does not love him as much as he loves her and she is done and moving on to the next stage of what she wants. He cannot see that her selfishness and self centeredness is all she is thinking of and that she does not want to make any concessions for anyone else for any reason. She just thinks he is going to go back to being friends and he shouldn't have any trouble with that...
He was not in a very good mood last night and decided not to stay to eat some chicken after he had said okay and I didn't push it. He did not like me saying that she just did not feel the same about him as he felt for her...and I didn't say anything about her selfishness... just that she obviously did not love him the way he loved her. She just used him to suit herself.... and he just cannot get past his feelings for her to see that.

Oh well, I am pretty much done with it all. I will listen to him if he wants to talk but I am not going to go any further than that. He will have to work this out on his own and maybe will get past this. He wanted a family and she has jerked that out from under him..... but why am I not surprised. She is all about her and always has been.... I am just thankful that they never had kids together...

The farm I cancelled when I went to the dr; they are all sick and he said that both he and one son went to the dr and they are also on antibiotics and that he wants to wait a few days to get feeling better.... they came down with it Sat he said.... got 2 more to get ahold of to test.
DS said we are definitely shipping some heifers this Sat.... and of course, it is supposed to rain Fri when we will get them in to sort and make a muddy mess.

I am going to head to the Verizon store as I have not gotten the voice mail icon situation solved yet and the past several days never went with feeling so crummy. I am feeling some better, not like I want to, but still have 3 days left of the antibiotics and hope they will get me over the hump so I will continue to get better and over this. Sunshine and warmer weather will help this though.

Got tea out in the sun steeping, time to get some more things going.

 

[Mini Horses]

He did not like me saying that she just did not feel the same about him as he felt for her...and I didn't say anything about her selfishness... just that she obviously did not love him the way he loved her. She just used him to suit herself.... and he just cannot get past his feelings for her to see that.

. Sadly, this is it in a nutshell and so, so, so hard for him. He saw it all thru those rosy lens, didn't even think this was possible. Yeah, only way to get thru -- he never will, totally. This has been a coupling he's dreamed of since high school!! Even more crushing since they've had some kind of relationship now. He really does have a broken heart. Try to keep him busy with anything you can. This is depressing for him, as I'm sure you see, know.

We have always discussed it wouldn't "be".... For a year. Hang in there, mom. Ya can't make it better but, maybe get him thru until he can accept their distance. I hate this because he'd be a great dad!! He just needs a committed, loving wife. (not her)

Any chance y'all could separate cows Thurs, before rain??

 

[Baymule]

What @Mini Horses said!

 

[farmerjan]

Just a little update.... DS talked to a mutual friend of his and GF.... she talked to GF for quite awhile I guess and it has come out how long she has been fighting this depression and I know she has been on several medications for her mood swings on top of all the crap from the breast cancer. This friend had a long talk with DS trying to explain to him what she is going through... how this depression is getting real bad and how she said she could not convey it to DS in a way that made sense.... AND, I am sure he was not listening very well either.... she has been seeing a pyschiatrist (sp) and with everything it was suggested that she had to get her self straightened out before she went off the deep end. She said she knew she was hurting him and is hurting others in her family but she is just "losing herself".... so that is what pushed this to this point.

I do not understand this kind of depression and I make no excuses... I just don't get it and have no real way to relate to people that have these kinds of mental breakdowns. I guess I am too simplistic a person. I have always figured that no matter what is thrown your way, there is a reason and that sadness is a part of life..... but you cannot sit and dwell on it forever..... she cannot let things go and lets it eat at her constantly.
I honestly hope the counseling will help her.... for her own sake and for the sake of her daughter....but it is something I just don't understand.

The good thing is DS seems a lot more calm about it and maybe is more accepting that it is NOT his fault as he started in saying last night and I got rather short with him about it... and told him it is not his fault, it is her problem and that for him to think that is just plain wrong.... he did not make the decision to leave, she put him out... and he got upset with me last night. But talking to this mutual friend he seems to be much more accepting that he didn't do anything wrong and the fact that GF couldn't talk to him is also not his fault. She has to come to terms with herself, and the things that she cannot let go.... and this friend said that she may never be able to have a relationship with him again like they had... partially because she resents the farm and the time he spends being a farmer.... but he just seems in a much better place. He was going to the sisters to see the her kids for a bit this evening because the little boy kept asking "where's Beezy"... DS's nickname....

So, I am going to leave it there. I hope that he can get to a better place with himself, and spend time with the kids some.... and accept that she has some serious problems and he cannot fix it and that it might not wind up the way he wants..... I am sure he is going to have bad days, but I think if he can talk to this mutual friend some, he might be able to accept it better.... And hopefully he will spend more time with the kids and realize that he is not being cut out of their lives and that if he has to see them as the sister's house, that is the way it is.

I feel sorry for her but it is not going to make me like her anymore or less.... and I hope for her sake she can get some things straightened out and find some peace.... and maybe he will try to go on with his life a little more.....